I would say the majority of our days here have been fine. Good, even. And when there are multiple days like that and I'm feeling like we are finding our groove, it's easy to forget that we are still in the beginning stages of this big change, and not every day is going to be smooth. I was definitely reminded of this today. Well really, this week in general. The fact that I've been in a funk is undeniable. Henry and I have a pretty established little routine day to day, but I know it's not a long term reflection of what our days will look like, and I'm just getting incredibly anxious to get our plans sorted out. I think we are both bored on occasion, as we don't see many other people than just each other. Don't get me wrong, he's my very favorite person in this world to spend time with, but it's hard starting over knowing no one. It leads us to do the same things over and over again most days, which I don't think he minds quite as much as I do. But I'm trying to be creative. I know I'm lucky that we get to be together all day long, even if it is just the two of us most days, and I need to make the most of it because one day we will be busy again. I do not want to whine away in this space, so for tonight I am relaxing, and feeling more positive as I sit here and recharge. With a glass of wine in hand, I'm searching for more activities to do with Henry, so that his days are full of fun, exploration, and adventure. I am also dreaming of carving time for activities that center and inspire me. And as always, trying to just continuously work on being content with the now. I can get so stir crazy, and while I love to wander and explore, I truly want to enjoy the slower days as well. It's a constant battle for me, enjoying slower paces and not losing sight of patience. I am a busy person by nature, while I crave a slow day here and there in the midst of incredibly busy days, I thrive in the faster pace. Right now I'm adjusting to the exact opposite, and am hoping to be patient with myself and those around me while I do.
As always,
thanks for listening.
As always,
thanks for listening.
