I'm in love with them.
The longer we are here in Alaska, building this family of ours, the more I find myself missing and dreaming of the midwest. Of warm, sticky evenings, retreating to cool water in the peak heat of a sunny day... Yes, this is odd coming from someone who runs very warm and is known for loving cool weather. But I do miss the midwest, for more reasons than I can count. I miss the family we have there, my favorite restaurants in Iowa, simply strolling downtown and seeing familiar places. I want those places to be places that Henry knows. However, I'm working on being present in the now, and wanting these places I see every day for Henry too. I don't want to move from here some day and feel like I didn't soak up the beauty of our first home together... every first as a family has been here. And here is wonderful. Here, the sun shines into the middle of the night, the air smells fresh and cool and clean. The mountains are a backdrop everywhere you go, and there's something unique about it here. I'm trying to just enjoy my surroundings, while we're here...love them, and pass the love to Henry. We are lucky to live here.
No matter the state though, no matter how many miles I am from where I'd love to be, these are the best days of my life without a question. I have been thinking about these last few months every single day, absolutely in awe of them. I've been entirely emotional over it all, watching this little person grow. I've found myself keeping lists of moments I love because I'm so afraid of forgetting, as the changes come entirely too quickly.
I even cried at the Pampers commercial , and show it to everyone who steps in our door just because it reminds me of the path we've come down in the last year. I'll write it here so that I may look back some day and remember these little moments that stopped me in my tracks and made me fall deeper in love with baby H.